The end of one is the beginning of another

I am glad... finally my quarterly reporting is almost coming to the tail end and I am seeing some light. For the longest time since the past 3 weeks, I have not seen the sun when I left office. So today finally when I left office, at least the sun has not gone home yet. Woohoo!!


But of cos, like my title says, the end of one, is the beginning of another...... what follows is going to be 2 major projects + 1 more quarter of reporting, before I can go on my maternity leave in peace.
I won't say that I am exactly excited at the thought of these, but at least, I guess, something for me to count down and look forward to bah.


This weekend is going to be a long weekend.... stil contemplating whether to take leave next tuesday, to prolong my holiday.... a bit sad though.... cannot go anywhere for holiday.. cos did not plan anything earlier, and with my current status, a bit hard to travel beyond the borders actually.... got to apply a lot of "exit permits" and i think the approval process going to be tough. So got to crack my brains now to think how not to waste the long weekend ahead. =,=


Okie.. got to go and prepare for tomorrow's cell group meeting oreadi. Believing God for a great and powerful meeting tmr. Been a long time i take all the 5Ws liaoz... Lord, I need your grace and mercy, I need your power like never before!!! =D

W477 turns 1 year old!

W477 turns 1 year old officially today!!

The card on the left was the card that Kless made for me last year, when we had our multiplication. I remember that during that time, it was with both tears of happiness and saddness that I received the card. Just like the card says, take Flight. Isn't it a lovely card with a message that is so encouraging and motivating? =)

Time flies... 365 days have passed.. and today, W477 stands at 1 year old. I would say, many things have changed since the time we multiplied a year ago. Some have left, for various reasons. For those who have left with for a better cause, I truly give them all the blessings from my heart.







In the past 1 year, in several occassions, honestly speaking, there were really occassions that I really wanted to give up. Being a shepherd is indeed tough. Heartaches after heartaches, headaches, challenging people and questions and problems, one after and other.



But I thank God for a great husband who constantly remind me why I have chosen this ministry and helping me to see my problems from a different angle and to be rational in my thinking, cos being a female leader, manyatimes, I admit I do let my emotions rule my brain.

I also thank God for a great spiritual mentor and discipler, who never fails to come and help me put out fires in the cell group. Whenever I have difficult questions or met with difficult people, he is always there to help me and give me the spiritual advise and encouragement that I, as a young leader need.



Of cos, I must thank the foundation of this cell group... every single member that came over to this new cell group with me. Despite my weaknesses, these guys and gals stood by me and support me in my ministry. Without them, this cell group would not even exist till today.

Reflecting on how this group has changed in this past 1 year, I can only thank God for his Faithfulness and Goodness in sustaining me in this ministry. Each step I take in leading this cell group, is really by a step of faith. I am so thankful that God has not given on me, cos I am definitely not the best leader around. All I can say, is that I will continue to do what I can according to what the Holy Spirit leads.



Thank You Lord, for this wonderful group of people that you have given me. I believe the days ahead are going to be even better!!! I love you all!!!

Congrats my dear friend

This morning, I received a very heart warming sms from a very dear friend, who has been fighting a tough battle for the past few months in KKH. She has had a tough pregnancy and many complications have happened along the way. But I am always so proud of her, as she has never lost faith in God. Instead, all these while, both she and her husband continue to hold on to God, and we all been praying together with her, believing that this is going to be a miracle baby.

I got to know last night at 12ish that she has gone in for an emergency c-sect, and we did not know what has happened. Nothing much we can do, expect to pray and lift it up to God to take care of their entire family. I went to bed with a heavy heart.

But thank God for his faithfulness and goodness. This morning, I received the sms from the proud mummy, that the miracle baby has arrived!!!! Although he is a super pre-mature baby, but we knew that it is already one great milestone for baby Xi-en and the proud parents. Now is not the time to stop praying yet, but I know, God's hands is upon this little one, and this baby is a strong fighter, just as the name that the parents have given him.

Jia you, Xi-en, Jia You, Baby Ethen!!! =D

This is how I am feeling now....

Yes, Stressed......... despite the fact that I am working at the luxury of my home.... =(((

working from home

In recent years, I always have this little dream that one day, I can work from home, or rather, to be able to have the flexibility to work from office or home at my own choice. I always envy those friends, who can work from home as and when they like..... and I think I once have the slight liberty of that lifestyle too, during my audit off peak days. But of cos, now gone are the days.


Today, not by my own choice, I am kinda forced to stay home to work. Of cos I am happy... but when the reality of having deadlines to meet, and in fact, I do feel a bit handicapped because I got no access to the server, no VPN, no access to the consolidation software, it makes it frustrating when I am actually working from home to rush out my consolidation which is supposed to be due tmr!!! ARGH!!!!


But I am still enjoying the freedom and relax feeling of working at home, on my laptop, listening to my fave music and being able to just take short breaks as and when I like. But it definitely takes double the discipline to stay focused and complete what I need to do.


Now i am thinking of lunch... what shall i eat for lunch... hmmmmmm.......

First Case of H1N1 in my office

today after lunch, a colleague told me one of the secretary in my office is confirmed with H1N1!!! And she was in office on monday. The other colleague who went out with her on sat, went to measure her temperature and she was feverish!!!! So she immediately packed her things and went off to see the doctor.. and was given 5 days mc..

And the most irony thing is that my management was totally not alarmed by this at all. Life goes on, as they said. But given the fact that:

a) the secretary who was infected, was sitting at quite a stragetic place that many of us would pass by her seat;

b) the colleague who had fever was sitting just diagonally behind me;

c) I belong to the high risk group and of course, there are 2 other pregnant ladies in the office.


I was kinda paranoid... even though I know must have faith for protection from God lah, but still, i was feeling totally uneasy. And somehow, as the day went by, I started to feel very warm and thought i felt feverish even!!

So by then, I cannot take it anymore. Sent a message to one of the boss (who happened to one of the pregnant ladies as well), and ask her what are we to do? Do we stay home for the next few days as well? She says she needed to check with the Regional Finance Director first.

Finally at 7pm, i received the sms. I am to stay home tmr, for a day first, while they monitor the situtation in office. Of cos, I feel happy at the decision. But at the same time, I am worried, cos my consol is supposed to be due for review this friday liaoz.. cham..... haiz....but of cos, I know health and bb is still more impt than anything else for now... so just gonna pray that tmr I be able to do as much of the report at home as possible, then if I am to go back on friday, then will chiong the rest bah...


But all in all, I just felt that somehow, my company is really lacking in taking immediate and precautionary measures to tackle this H1N1. I really wonder why......

God's Grace

I got to learn to lean on God's grace and strength more, and not on my own strength.

2 Cor 12: 9

My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.

This was the verse that God spoke to me during worship tonight.

He reminded me, the earth will not spining just because I have a problem in life. Like what Tristan shared, in Jos 1:9, God says, Be strong and of good courage. I believe while God is renewing my love for Him tonight, yet at the same time, He is telling me something tonight.

No matter how difficult the road is, God's grace is there to sustain me. No matter how many weaknesses that I can have, maybe even countless, yet, his strength will come and make me perfect in His eyes.


Its a funny thing. Everytime when I feel so frustrated, God always has his way to encourage me and make me pick myself up again. Just like what Isaiah shared with us on what Jeffrey Rahmat shared on tuesday meeting, the most powerful way of leading is to learn to lead ourselves.


I realised, its only when we learn to lead ourselves, we no longer dwell in self-pity. But more than that, we begin to see our weaknesss like a mirror is being placed before us, and we learn to change ourselves with the Grace of God, so that as we lead ourselves, we lead others.


Reminds me of the song:

Your grace is enough

More than I need

At your word, I will believe

I wait for you

Draw near again

Let your spirit make me new

And I will fall at your feet

I will fall at your feet

And I wil worship you here

Freely you gave it all for us

Surrendered your life Upon that Cross

Great is the Love

Poured out for all

This is our God

Lifted on High from Death to Life

Forever our God is glorified

Servant and King

Rescued the World

This is our God

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