This is how I am feeling now....

Yes, Stressed......... despite the fact that I am working at the luxury of my home.... =(((

working from home

In recent years, I always have this little dream that one day, I can work from home, or rather, to be able to have the flexibility to work from office or home at my own choice. I always envy those friends, who can work from home as and when they like..... and I think I once have the slight liberty of that lifestyle too, during my audit off peak days. But of cos, now gone are the days.


Today, not by my own choice, I am kinda forced to stay home to work. Of cos I am happy... but when the reality of having deadlines to meet, and in fact, I do feel a bit handicapped because I got no access to the server, no VPN, no access to the consolidation software, it makes it frustrating when I am actually working from home to rush out my consolidation which is supposed to be due tmr!!! ARGH!!!!


But I am still enjoying the freedom and relax feeling of working at home, on my laptop, listening to my fave music and being able to just take short breaks as and when I like. But it definitely takes double the discipline to stay focused and complete what I need to do.


Now i am thinking of lunch... what shall i eat for lunch... hmmmmmm.......

First Case of H1N1 in my office

today after lunch, a colleague told me one of the secretary in my office is confirmed with H1N1!!! And she was in office on monday. The other colleague who went out with her on sat, went to measure her temperature and she was feverish!!!! So she immediately packed her things and went off to see the doctor.. and was given 5 days mc..

And the most irony thing is that my management was totally not alarmed by this at all. Life goes on, as they said. But given the fact that:

a) the secretary who was infected, was sitting at quite a stragetic place that many of us would pass by her seat;

b) the colleague who had fever was sitting just diagonally behind me;

c) I belong to the high risk group and of course, there are 2 other pregnant ladies in the office.


I was kinda paranoid... even though I know must have faith for protection from God lah, but still, i was feeling totally uneasy. And somehow, as the day went by, I started to feel very warm and thought i felt feverish even!!

So by then, I cannot take it anymore. Sent a message to one of the boss (who happened to one of the pregnant ladies as well), and ask her what are we to do? Do we stay home for the next few days as well? She says she needed to check with the Regional Finance Director first.

Finally at 7pm, i received the sms. I am to stay home tmr, for a day first, while they monitor the situtation in office. Of cos, I feel happy at the decision. But at the same time, I am worried, cos my consol is supposed to be due for review this friday liaoz.. cham..... haiz....but of cos, I know health and bb is still more impt than anything else for now... so just gonna pray that tmr I be able to do as much of the report at home as possible, then if I am to go back on friday, then will chiong the rest bah...


But all in all, I just felt that somehow, my company is really lacking in taking immediate and precautionary measures to tackle this H1N1. I really wonder why......

God's Grace

I got to learn to lean on God's grace and strength more, and not on my own strength.

2 Cor 12: 9

My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.

This was the verse that God spoke to me during worship tonight.

He reminded me, the earth will not spining just because I have a problem in life. Like what Tristan shared, in Jos 1:9, God says, Be strong and of good courage. I believe while God is renewing my love for Him tonight, yet at the same time, He is telling me something tonight.

No matter how difficult the road is, God's grace is there to sustain me. No matter how many weaknesses that I can have, maybe even countless, yet, his strength will come and make me perfect in His eyes.


Its a funny thing. Everytime when I feel so frustrated, God always has his way to encourage me and make me pick myself up again. Just like what Isaiah shared with us on what Jeffrey Rahmat shared on tuesday meeting, the most powerful way of leading is to learn to lead ourselves.


I realised, its only when we learn to lead ourselves, we no longer dwell in self-pity. But more than that, we begin to see our weaknesss like a mirror is being placed before us, and we learn to change ourselves with the Grace of God, so that as we lead ourselves, we lead others.


Reminds me of the song:

Your grace is enough

More than I need

At your word, I will believe

I wait for you

Draw near again

Let your spirit make me new

And I will fall at your feet

I will fall at your feet

And I wil worship you here

Freely you gave it all for us

Surrendered your life Upon that Cross

Great is the Love

Poured out for all

This is our God

Lifted on High from Death to Life

Forever our God is glorified

Servant and King

Rescued the World

This is our God

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shopping for baby

I must say, shopping for baby is fun and yet, a big headache!!!!

Reason being, everything looks so cute and I need great self-restraint and self-control to prevent myself from making impulse purchases.

But still, I am enjoying the process of shopping for my baby... i realised.... i am no longer so keen to shop for my own stuff now... whenever I am out at the mall, I am always looking at baby's stuff!!!

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Today I am on leave... but I was out practically the whole day... and now I am so tired.





Went for my mid-pregnancy scan today... my colleague did hers a few weeks back @ TMC, and she told me that her gynae actually videotaped down the whole process and gave them a CD ROM to bring home with them as souvenir.... so we thought we would bring our own camera along and videotaped down the whole process tooo..=) But sadly, my gynae did not really approve her patients to do any taping. Haiz.





But nonetheless, as she was doing the detailed scan, we were so excited. Saw our darling moving inside, and Dr Lisa patiently explain each body part and organ as she moves her ultrasound equipment over my tummy. We saw the heart, the kidney, the brain, the bladder, the 2 feets, 2 hands, the eyes and the lips... I must say, certain parts when she was telling us, I really cannot really visualise lah.... so really by faith lor, and Dr Lisa kept telling us, we are not trained medically, so we just got to believe her.... okie lah... i guess with her experience, her words should definitely be quite accurate.







Every time when we go and visit her, she always assures us that the baby is growing well, and today, she even tells me that my weight is now in the right percentile!! Yay!! She told me that I am putting on the right amount of weight this month.... thank God.. before today, I was still worried that I have put on too much this month and was thinking, sure get nagged by Dr Lisa again.. Haha...







After the consultation, we were supposed to go and visit a dear friend at KKH, but only to find out that it was not convenient. My dear friend, if you are reading this entry, just want to tell you that me and gerald are uplifting you and your boy in prayers everyday... we are believing together with you that this is definitely going to be a miracle boy! Do not lose the faith okie?? Jia YOU!!!







So in the afternoon, we went to catch the mOvie... Harry Potter and the Half Blood prince... really not fantastic as many of my friends have said. I give it 2 out of 5 pop corns!! Story line is vague and plot move on too slowly....





After that, we went to look ard for some baby's stuff @ Kiddy palace and Mothercare. Everything looks so tempting to me..... feels like buying everything.. hahaha.. but of cos, we had self restraint lah...we wanted to buy the romper from MC, but they dun have the size that i want for that design.. so ... in the end, din get anything today.... but i must say.. baby's stuff are really CUTE!!! The other day, I bot my first item for my boy...... 2 pairs of cute socks!!!

They look so cute right? Grins~

And after that, went to meet my parents for dinner... cos today is my mummy's bday. food was great. But forgot to take pictures.. hahaha.. had crabs , fish, frog legs, vege and mee sua... yum yum....





Okie... after a long day, now time to hit the bed.. going to be a mad week ahead... aiming to finish my consol first draft by friday.... so that weekend no need go back office..... Jia YOU Bah!!! Nitezzz

crazy monday

as if monday blues is not bad enough, it is made worse when you got colleagues who really pisses u off... already told him deadline was last wednesday.... until today, the output is still not ready..... really going crazy sooon!!

Anyway, shall not dwell on the monday blues..... hopefully the rest of the day will get better. Boohoo..
Just realised today office has got a new guy walking ard, dunno where is he from, no one introduced him.. but not bad looking.. haha...... well, guys are rare species in my company to start off with.. most men in their late thirties... i think the youngest guy in the office is 30?? and the number of men in the office can be counted with my two hands lor.... thats how pathetic it is.....


Had a great shopping day with the girls yesterday... bot 3 pcs from Forever 21.. meant to go shopping for bottoms, but end up buying more tops instead.. hahahaa... so not focused!!


I shall aim to go home by 8pm today...otherwise the rest of the month i think the chances of me hitting home before 9pm is a miracle liaoz....gan battee to myself!

Yummy!!

I HEART THIS!!

My mum told me if I take this, next time baby's skin be delicate and smooth.. haha... me don't really believe lah, but since I get to eat good stuff now, why not?? Hehehe... =))) Maybe I can sleep more soundly tonight after taking this.... woohooo.....

seafood feast

just back from a great seafood feast.... but what is even better is the fellowship!!

Even though i was having a super bad migraine since this morning, but at least, that did not spoil the night. Thanks for the great fellowship my dear friends=)


And finally, I went to have a haircut today....not much changes though.. just a neat trim....=D

Time for bed.. going to be a long day tmr....Good nite!

random

time flies, already in the month of July already.... reality sinks in... quarter 2 consol is going to start soon in 2 weeks time. bleah!!!


this week super tired.... cos almost the whole week, I am the only one holding the fort in my team.... my colleagues are either on mc or on leave... and worst news came yesterday.. the colleague who just went HK for holiday with his wife, supposed to come back to office yesterday... his wife is down with a fever and doc gave her 7 days mc.. haiz.... so in order to protect ourselves, we told the colleague to stay home and come back only on next monday. Crossing my fingers that he be alright, otherwise, this quarter closing going to be a nightmare again.. haiz.... cos knowing the efficiency..... i cannot imagine whats going to happen this quarter.


Somehow, this week I feel very drained.. super tired... everyday i knock out before 12am.... and only wake up at 8am the next morning.. but when I reach office, I am still so tired.... God, please give me new strength.... i need it more than ever before.....